I am sickie!

Ok so I now completely understand the whole morning sickness thing. When I was pregnant with Austin I had it for 5 days and thought it was rough. I have now been sick for a few weeks non stop. I can't keep anything down and we can barely cook with out me getting ill. It has made from some really bland meals. I take pitty on my family who are suffering right along with me.

We made a big decision these past couple weeks. We have decided to go back home next summer. None of us are really adjusting as well as we'd hoped so we're gonna pack it in and move home in a year. I hate feeling like I am throwing in the towel. I have always been a fighter but I so desperately want and need to be home.. close to extended family and friends.

I have been on bed rest for a while (sad complications with my pregnancy- not ready to share this yet) and have an appointment next Friday to find out if everything is still OK . It has me really worried and we had to have a talk with Austin about how sometimes pregnancies are not viable and that it can result in no baby. We explained it as simply and as softly as we could in case something goes wrong it won't be as devastating to him. Until next week we just pray that all is well. I have been feeling a bit better this week. At least well enough to be able to go out a bit. We went to see weird al. That was really fun!

A friend of mine (Shalaine) has been my saving grace... basically keeping me positive when I feel really down.

If you have a chance send me some good vibes/prayers.

Love,

Coleen
XOXOXOXO

Pregnancy

It sure is strange being pregnant again. Unlike many moms, my kids will NOT be close in age. Fertilly issue have forced us to have a very large gap. Austin was born OVER A DECADE AGO! (Pick your jaw back up, that look is not becoming!) I know it's shocking but it's a fact. So being that Austin is 10 we've already been having "The Talks" for quite a while and he has sex ed in school. When we told Austin he was gonna have a brother or sister he looked at us blankly for a second and then said... " Oh gross... That means you guys did it" I laughed so hard and Austin was clearly traumatized.. There comes a time in every kids life where it occurs the them that there parents still have sex. I remember when that day happened for me. I too was traumatized so I understand.

Second on my mind is that I signed up for this great weekly newsletter that talks about the babies progress each week. Austin and I read it together, I figure it will help him with his fears to know exactly what's going on in there. Each week it gives you an idea of the size so the first one I got said it was the size of a Raspberry, so for that week austin had a nickname for it. Last week it likend it to a lima bean so that was what he called it. This week it was a grape, so that's what he calls it. It makes my day to hear it, it's so funny/cute. This morning when Chris was leaving he said "love you, and the little grape too!" I guess he likes the nickname too.

I am so blessed to have what I have already and more and more I notice how my heart sings as result of these little moments...

I am loving life right now more than ever. (Too bad I can't stop throwing up...)

Love,

Coleen
XOXOXOXO

Now my B I G announcement....

I had to share the news with my family first but now that that's done I can spill my guts to you all too! The best way is to show you!

Yes I am almost 9 weeks Pregnant! Those of you who have been reading my blog know that we have had fertility issues and have been trying for #2 for years. Finally we are expecting!!!! We're still working on letting it sink it. It's pretty surreal.

Love, Coleen

XOXOXOXOXO

Taking a huge deep breath....

I am about to have some info confirmed or denied that with possibly change our lives.
While I have to remain tight lipped about it for now. Say a little prayer or jsut send happy thoughts my way.... At any rate I will post about this info soon.

Here are some things that have been on my mind...

1.) Stay here or go home...
2.) Continue with a mediocre career or go back to school...
3.) Plan a trip home to see my family (gosh I miss my sister!)
4.) Plan a fab camping trip for my son...

Just a few things I have been thinking about lately..


Love,

Coleen
XOXOXOX

I'm baaaack!

Wow, it has been a really really long time. 3 months since I stopped blogging. First as you all know we were given a decision to make about relocating on the other side of the country. It was a scary decision but one we knew our family was strong enough to withstand. Once we arrived here we had a spell of very bad luck. We were in a hotel for ages and just on June 1st did we finally move into what we now call home. It is temporary, we just had to take anything (it's a rental and not very big, We all feel crowded). There is a terrible housing crisis here in Edmonton, meaning the prices are now sitting at an average of 500k for a standard 3 bedroom home with no frills. OUCH! Too high for us at the moment. rentals are at a 1% vacancy rate. So all that is available are your little dank dark apartments. We were really fortunate to find a beautiful place albeit small. So many things have happened since the move, we are definitely a stronger family, and we all are homesick, but feel this could be a permanent move for us. Edmonton is WONDERFUL despite the hardships we have endured. One thing I can safely say is I wish we moved slower and took more time, and I wish we had found a place to live before moving. Living a "rock star" life in a hotel eating nothing but take out got VERY old VERY fast...

Lastly, I should have continued to ask myself "What would Martha do?" LOL!! Planning planning and more planning, that's what she would have done!

Sorry it's been so long. I hope you'll all come back and see me regularly as I have some HUGE news to reveal very soon!


XOXOXOXOX

The old me:

The new me: