(albeit, a day late)
Remember this post about having a big secret?
Here is my big secret...
I DID NOT FINISH SCHOOL. So who cares right!? Lots of people didn't finish college or university right! I am like a lot of people!!!! Ok well let me start again:
I DID NOT FINISH HIGH SCHOOL. Yeah that got ya by surprise didn't it. You're horrified and shocked, right? Well I have told only a small number of people what this secret was. I had one guys jaw literally drop and his eyes got huge, in manner I've not seen in a while. Kinda like this:
Yeah, nice reaction buddy! I know he's gonna read this and swear he was cool with it, and maybe he is now but in the moment it was pure monkey shock and awe!
I mentioned it over coffee to a couple of close friends. One didn't have much to say, but I know that it was a surprise, and I also know she'll still love me anyway. The other one actually had guessed that that was my secret and since I trust her I felt confident that it wouldn't be a problem. After all my truest of friends won't care that I am not University educated in the art of friendship.
Getting past that, now what? Well I was faced with a few options.
1.) Do nothing and keep hiding my shame, go through life as I always have (suffering with a case of the "dumbs")
2.) Get my GED and be done with it. After all I get one of these that says I'm equal to a graduate
3.) Tackle the embarassment head on and GO BACK TO HIGH SCHOOL. What the f*ck? Did I just say that? Yup. It's an option right?
So what do you think I did? I chose option #3, yup the hard option. The one that will have me finish high school properly. I'll even get a cap & gown ceremony at a real high school (my son's high school actually.. can you say AWE-SOME! I can but her likely won't. Wonder how he'll feel when I tell him I'm deferring receipt of my diploma to 2015 so we can formally graduate on the SAME day!!) Yup I am the parent of the year, folks, did you ever doubt it? OK well you should have because after googling for an image of what that certificate would look like I learned that there isn't one. Ha! Jokes on me. I guess I thought it was real, because... well... I'm dumb. I have already proven that in my admission to bein a high school drop out. Are you following me still?
All joking aside. I am going back to school. I am doing it for me. I am proud of my decision. I hope my son will be proud of me too, and the secret shame he feels of having a drop out for a mom will be gone soon.
So now you know!! It's all out there! Now I need to enjoy my last few days of being a lady of leisure. Because next week, this chicka is rolling back the clocks and redoing 1994! School starts on Monday!
Wish me
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NOTE: The feelings expessed in this post reflect soley the views I feel towards MYSELF for not finishing school and how that impacted my career goals. This does not mean I feel that others in the same situation are losers or that they have less worth than those who finished.
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